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Old Mar 10, 2016, 10:44 PM
AncientMelody AncientMelody is offline
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Originally Posted by ListenMoreTalkLess View Post
I respect a T or anyone else for choosing a different job that is more in line with her values. I can understand why any health provider or professional makes a choice to work with indigent clients. The desire to work and help those with the fewest resources is a laudable one, especially when it's rarely the highest paying way to go.

I had one therapist who I had to end early with because he changed jobs to where he was only going to be supervising students and not seeing clients any more. I was very attached and had very little time, less than 2 weeks, to make a switch and we did focus on me finding someone else for the time that we had left. I don't really remember much of it, but I was very pissed off.

I don't know if this is true for you, but my experience was that I wasn't just angry and sad that he was leaving before I was ready too. I was angry and sad at everyone in the past who had let me down, who weren't there for me when I needed them to be, and having to lose my T just brought all those unresolved losses to the forefront-- along with my having to acknowledge that I hadn't done well for myself in building a support network of people nor was I in the right job for me.

So the thing isn't about just thing. I sense that there is more going on with you than just the impulses you're having about saying goodbye in a way that doesn't seem to really honor the work you've done or point towards a positive future for yourself. I think if you can tune into understanding what your T leaving is symbolizing or bringing up for you, you may be able to turn this unfortunate event into something that moves you forward in your own life.
Well I would like to focus on this bit here because I do appreciate what you have written here. Yes it's about more...it's about a loss of control. I have been pushed into my last couple of life transitsions due to circumstance rather than active choice. They've worked fine, but I am tired of not having control.

I've worried for awhile that she'd be leaving completely. Although she says this was a recent decision, I've seen pattern in her availability dip every 6 months or so. I regret not making an active choice when I saw this to start drawing our time to a close. To make it my decision and not happenstance.