Genesis, these are things you need to seriously discuss with your therapist - and don't every feel embarrassed about answering "yes" to questions - the questions are there so they can help you. Yes, it is the hardest thing to talk about - I felt so humiliated discussing them and ever since I have had a hard time relating to my T - worried that he thought I was sick from having this done to me as a child (even though I know deep down inside and intellecually that he respects me as a person and has the utmost concern for my wellness - I still have reservations about trusting him since we talked of this issue) - but still, it is worth talking about. You can never get over something like that without getting it out in the open and looking at it with someone trained to help you. And, as others have said, maybe it never did happen. Your T can help with your fear of it maybe happening as well. Keep being willing to talk about the "hard stuff" - it is the way for the healing to work. I know when I started my T he told me it was probably better if I did not remember what happened in my childhood - and now I know WHY. I think he may have suspected some of this type of stuff based on what I already remembered and on my behavior and problems. Thank god (whoever you think of him/her) that I have who I consider to be the world's greatest T who is willing to see me with my HMO insurance.