I understand. I drank for a long time before it became a thing that I had to drink. Then it became impossible to give up. I knew I had a problem and knew I was drinking to get drunk and escape who knows what. And to sleep.

I am so grateful that I'm sober now. I would hate to be dealing with being drunk every night, not remembering and having zero energy to do anything. It took me six months of being sober before I started having more energy. Now I've cleaned and de-cluttered and baked and sang - and and and - and it feels good. I would have done none of those things if I still had alcohol ravaging my body.

I've just tragically lost my little Amy and I'd do anything to escape this grief I'm feeling, but I wont drink. I'm free.