I am having a really hard time right now. My wife has been wanting me to get on medication for some time now. Last night at work I worked up the courage to schedule an appointment for this afternoon. The closer to time it was for me to go the closer to a full blown breakdown I came. I ended up not going & I feel horrible about it now. I have really disappointed my wife and I feel like I can't even look at her right now. I am at work now and will be getting off in about 30 minutes. I don't want to go home l, but I don't know where to go. It is 1 am here and there is no where I can go until she leaves for work in the morning. If I had the money to spend I would just rent a room for the night. Although that's not a good idea because I may end up killing myself if I did that. I don't really need to be alone but I don't know where to go.