hey - its ok man, you made an attempt and wasn't able to do it this time

you can do it though, dont beat yourself up over one attempt ok?

its really hard trying to face these things... going to the doctor is like kind of confirming with your subconcious that hey maybe i do have a problem?

its scary .... but i know you can do it, you want help but you are just anxious...
thats completely understandable, i have been trying to deal with doctors for... uuhh... i dunno like 6 years now and its still a struggle... but i've learned a couple tricks to get myself to "just do it "

"just do it" because i really do want to feel better...
"just do it" because i really do want to get better for my wife
"just do it" because ----- fill in the blanks you know...?

just keep repeating positive things about why you need to do it...
the whole time if you have to, i'll be sitting in the doctors office considering if i should just leave before they call me... but i always trick myself to stick around until they call me - then you get in with the doctors and they are generally really understanding

if i can do it, you can do it mate i never thought i would work up the courage to actually do it... but i did it one day - because i was getting so bad

its be ok mate !! you have to try again and again and again, dont look at the fails, it happens to all of us