I've been through the gambit of ssris they didn't work. My psychiatrist has me on something that isn't an Ssri. The ssris would work for about a month then I would be right back where I started from. The stuff they have me on now is working, slowly. My suicidal days are fewer, but I still,have days of intense feelings of wanting to die. The thought is always there but some days it's more manageable I guess you could say. And then there are days like today....