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Mar 11, 2016, 07:11 AM
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Member Since: Nov 2002
Location: Mid World
Posts: 18,122
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posted by Open Eyes
This helped me realize why I was frightened by switching in the dream. For me it would be a regression. I worked very hard to become the "me" I am today. I do NOT want to go back to being that scared rabbit I was back then. Please don't think I'm criticizing who I was back then. I was doing the best I could to cope with the circumstances I was living in at the time.
There was time in my recovery that I told my pdoc I was afraid I would lose the ability to dissociate. It had helped me through some very day days. I didn't want to have to lose it in order to be "better." He told me he didn't think I'd lose it, but wouldn't need to use it anymore. He was right. The ability is there. I just don't have to use it to survive.
Back to my reaction to the dream. I think my fear of switching in the dream was fear that I was going backward or a fear that something is going on that would make me switch.
Still going to talk to my pdoc about it Monday.
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