Thanks for answering... your posts make for more thinking.. which is a good thing...

This is helping me sort out how I feel.. so I appreciate the opportunity...

No.... I would never wait for a T to pronouce "integration" complete... You know I did do that with the first T of ten years.. I wanted that "pronouncement"... which when I look back at it... was more "his" thing than "my" thing..

Then I went to a highly skilled T... who did away with the DID DX and.. and worked with each of the alters - resolving each's issues.. as they came.. up... without even calling attention to the fact that they were alters.. He was a child psychologist... I was having trouble with child alters... so.. it followed suit I would want them to get help.. and that was a "process" that led to integration...

Then I went thru a series of T.. the last was 4 years.. she didn't believe in DID.. and so she told me that alot.. however she knew about eating disorders.. so I got help on that.. However... as a DID person... it was the most frustrating type of therapy... ever..

This last T... is just very good.. with DID.. but really thinks that integration is important.. and I don't want to be "at odds" with him..and I won't drop him... but I have definite lines that I do not want crossed..

For me I have evolved.. into really separate very distinct alters.. not sure what the "techie" term is... I want to perserve these very distinct alters..

I do have 4 mom alters.. that I will go thru the process and merge into one mom alter... and one of my alters has gained co-consiousenes and will contiune to share her pain and mature out.. until it is better..

Other than working on resolution of my ED... that will be the end of work on DID..

Where for some reason.. I see that other DID people would work on the process that would eventually lead to intergration all by itself...I am saying.. ahh no in therapy.. and keeping boundaries.. it is a consious decsion.

Am not sure I explained it well .. I can visualize what I am talking about.. just can't.. explain it..