Today's session was not that great. It started alright, but when we got to that other subject. I don't know. I just don't agree with you. I know I'm not being rational. But about that one thing I don't agree.
I've thought about your suggesting. I was planning too write it down in a letter. But when I got home today, I read that email my mum send you. And I was perplexed. Some things she wrote to you... I don't understand it. It just not right. She wrote I'm claiming her. I'm not. I'm getting more independent. Slowly. Very slowly. But I don't need her to come to appointments anymore. I can do that myself. I can do the groceries. I can go to therapy by myself. She's the one who asks me to to do things. She asks me to go shopping togethher, to go to a concert, to take part in a run...etc.
And about my brother. She wrote that he wants to try to get closer (or something) but my mum says that I close myself of to it.
WTF?! For years and years I've tried to get some kind of sister/brother band. For some years I've been organising a Christmas diner. But he's the one who never shows up. I've asked him several times if he wants to go to the film with me/us. I've also asked him for some other things, but there isn't that much because he doesn't like a lot. But everytime I got a no. I've given him presents for Christmas and his birthday, eventough I didn't get anything from him. I have tried! I've tried for years. Last summer I had enough. I stopped trying.
He hasn't ask me for anything. So what I got a birthday card. That's all I got. And once again he wasn't at our Christmas diner.

I'm the one who's driving our family apart? I wasn't the one. They should know that! He started many years ago with that. He didn't want to eat in the same room as us. He didn't do presents. He didn't want to do things with us.
If I wouldn't organise a Christmas diner every year, the three of us won't even have one diner together at the same table.

And I don't want anyone coming to a session with me. You are my T. I'm not going to share you. They can get their own T.

But at the end of today's session, I felt some anger towards you. And doubt.

So much going on. You're leaving. I get a new T. School and exams. Pdoc. Family. And then my on-going anxiety and depression.

If you look at all that, is it so suprising I snapped? It should be more suprising I went on for so long without doing something like that.