OK, I see. Thank you. You made my point very clear; I'm not social and cannot talk about the things normal people talk about and be spontaneous and easy going. No wonder why I prefer to be alone, because I simply cannot connect with people at any level. Probably you're right for me to leave all these books and forums, and focus more on real life and see a therapist. Probably that's what I'm going to do, or just accept myself and be alone all my life. Anyway, I appreciate your time and effort in replying all.