Thanks for replying, Perna.
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Too, sometimes when we look back over our childhood we think we were "supposed" to feel bad about something because other people would have so we unconsciously feel bad that maybe we didn't feel badly about it at the time?
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That could well be it. I've seen a wide range of reactions to the event, from people feeling sorry for me to witnessing teachers at the primary school telling off a couple of kids in my year for getting upset about it - apparently, if the year below was fine then they should have been as well. So it's been pretty confusing as to how I "should" react to it.
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Too, sometimes when we look back over our childhood we think we were "supposed" to feel bad about something because other people would have so we unconsciously feel bad that maybe we didn't feel badly about it at the time?
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Nope, I don't have a clue.
When I was doing EMDR my therapist said at one of the sessions he thought I might be blocking something, but we never found out if he was right, or what it was if he was.
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Don't spend time feel badly about yourself Rio! There's nothing wrong with you, your psyche is doing its job and helping you. You are always on your side and what you do/think/feel/experience is always "yours" and "good". Treat it like a good mystery or the thread from the yarn going into the dark cave :-) and work with that when you get a chance. You don't have to solve it all right now (I was in therapy basically from 1970-2005) and there's nothing bad/wrong with you for any way you feel or don't feel!
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Thanks, that's good to know! That's an interesting way of looking at it.
Thanks.
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Maybe start with trying to see when these "thoughts" of the previous experience/memory come to you; what are you "doing"/thinking right before in the "real"/now world? That will be a clue as to why you're trying to "dwell" back there. Work and uni and all those things are new, scary experiences for everybody! You made it safely past the old experience of being a child and the counseling, etc. Maybe it will be interesting to see how you feel a month, then six months, a year, etc. into uni; right before you graduate? :-) and when dwelling on the old thoughts come up. It could be that "simple", the childhood experience could be a "talisman" of sorts.
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Good question! Sometimes they're definitely triggered by something - a news report, for example - but sometimes they just seem to come out of the blue. I'll try and pay more attention to what's going on when they start. That's true, they're certainly scaring me!
You could be right there.
Thanks again!