I have been really sick with the stomach flu. I have recovered from that, but it messed up my mental equilibrium somehow. My therapist, J, said I was rapid cycling on Wednesday. We talked about staying more stable via lessons I have learned. I have really been trying, but I keep sliding into depression. I am so tired of fighting this particularly tonight. I called my only close family member (my sister) at lunch, but she lives a state away. We talked which was great but now I feel even lonelier and more depressed. I texted my pastor friend and we are going to meet to talk tomorrow. I have my therapist on call at night and on weekends if i am in crisis, which I am not.
I look around my one room living space and the walls feel like they are getting tighter every moment. I despise night. I hate loneliness and depression.
Does anyone have any advice or help?
Is there any kindness out there?
Please.
DW