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Originally Posted by BudFox
I agree. For me, in hindsight, it was just plain unhealthy, with subtle undertones of emotional abuse in all the withholding. I developed intense attachment and feelings for my ex-T. And yet I was allowed no physical contact, only the briefest morsels of face time, there was no mutual sharing, and none of the deep longings and needs were ever, or could ever be, gratified in a meaningful way. It was a torment. And then the client is made to feel guilty for wanting more. This is healing?
Hope the OP can get through this.
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Thank you.
I think I'm getting too attached to my T. I already am. I'm not sure about my feelings. I like her and I admire her and envy her. I don't really want to see her outside of therapy, that would feel too weird. But during our therapy, I long for something more. A hug. Casual talk. Getting to know a bit about her interesses.
I haven't told her this. She knows I'm a bit attached to her, but I told her I want her as my T. She's the only T who has been able to help me and who seemed to understand me.
This is also true, but there's more. I think I should talk about this to her before she's going on leave. Otherwise I might keep thinking about it and I won't have any contact with her for about 5 months.