I have been restless today.....wanting to run away again. Just up & walk out of my life.
I feel so stuck sometimes.
Then, I wanted to drink tonight. I've been sober 4 yrs.
I was thinking of ways to smuggle booze in the house but I'm on Lithium so that didn't happen.

I'm so jacked up, I want to laugh & cry at the same time.

I feel like everything is in slow motion. I'm watching life unfold in front of me. What is that?

I don't care much about anything, just going through the motions. Day after day. I'm bored. People bore me.
I want my hypomanic excitement back. I feel it brewing just under the surface, scratching to get out.

I want energy & passion back.