I'm looking up groups on meetup, because this is the only way for me to socialize and sharpen my social skills instead of talking to random strangers. But ironically, I've this this fear that every body will expect me to be able to socialize in the first place. For example I look to this group which I'd like to join, but when I look to their photos, I can see that they are very social, spontaneous, and laughing together. There is no specific interest about this group; just people meeting and trying different things and activities. I'm not sure if I can be involved like this, and I'm afraid I'll be outcast because of that. But there is no other way to be ready to socialize other than socializing