im no good shape for to giv advice....
can your wife help youi get to the appoint,ent...
can she support you there - tel hre how you feel...
its dreally hard... and ifshe doesnt byleve you ...
tell hre i said its almost implossible to seek help enw you are on the brink of desctrivtion...

i wnat you to feel beter,,,, you desvre it.....