I am making a new start with my new T , I need to change many things in my life … many have already occurred , many need to …
I have abused others trust through my pm's … it appears I know longer “get it” … I seem to be out of step with others … I seem to not understand what others are expressing … I really wish it was my bp but I fear it is my facalities going to pot … meds can help bp symptoms but dying grey matter is a whole different kettle of fish …
anyway I just want to apologize to anyone I have offened in the past , and I will try my best to do better in the future … but I feel I should no longer converse with anyone thru pm … I have also withdrawn my friendships … please do not be offended I just need to withdraw somewhat to get a better grip on myself … I do not have any issues with anyone ,anywhere , I just need to reevaluate how I am treating others … and I no longer feel I should do that privately … so my pm is turned off and will stay off until I am well enough to no longer hurt others … it seems I am always saying I am sorry over and over here … not really sure what is going on with me … please be patient … all I have ever wanted to do is be helpful …

this will be a weekend all alone … not really sure how that is going to go in my frame of mind … but soon-kyu has got me thru it before and I just hope there is some magic left there … I just want a dream like she sings about in her song below ...

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