Cyclo Mary, what is wrong with reality? Truth is easier to live with than adrenaline all the time. Growth comes slow, with rain, sun, dark, light, small wonderments of growth. And so it is in this life. We don't need to booze or drug to exist, because that is not reality. Reality is beautiful on its own to exist and see this beautiful world that was created for us to enjoy. I am a big fan if one is all jacked up, to put on a pair of hiking boots and go for a nice nature walk and feel the energy of the earth, embrace it, feel it and become alive that way. It does wonders, tc and blessings