Dolphin lover, if i am reading you right you are expressing a bad self image over not being happy with your body, weight, how you feel about yourself or what you look like. you have a poor self image of yourself and it is causing you negative thoughts about your whole life beyond your body. I use to be petite knock dead gorgeous when i was 17. I am not 17 anymore and gravity works, things drop, sag and life happens. Now i can only work with what i got. I have the maturity to accept i am now turned into an old lady. I have to say to myself i do things but slower, and it is okay. I space my time out longer to finish a project and things. It is okay to not get it all done anymore. It is okay to take breaks and work on things a little at a time. And so it is with all things we do. You will have to work at telling yourself your negative thoughts do not define who you are as a person. Those are just bad whispers you are entertaining, they are not real. You look at the facts of life and how you always managed to get to a new day and it will give you the hope that you can always pick yourself back up and start over again. Life is not about just accomplishments, it is about daily doing the same things over again with joy, gratitude and enjoying the journey along the way. (((hugs))) tc