There is no magic pill with any meds, we have to keep working until we find some sort of common ground, that is, the meds help me but I have to do a lot of the legwork myself. It has taken me 4 years to get where I am and I am lucky it has only taken this short length of time to get some relief from this nightmare. Don't get me wrong, I have had depression all my life but the last few years have really taken it toll. I know what it feels like. I am sorry you feel so low, you deserve to be the very best that you can be, thats why you need to seek professional help immediately if you are thinking of carrying out ending your life.