Oh how I wish there were some magical pill. I would be all over that. Yeah, I know it takes lots of leg work in n my part. And I have started that process. I have a psychologist that I really like. I have been seeing him for only a month now so I'm not expecting miracles. All I want is the thought of ending it all to go away. I am now on my second day of intense feelings of ending it. I know it's not right. I know it is wrong. I know how crushing it would be to my husband, but the urge is very strong. I will continue to fight it, I will continue to cry and I will continue to lean on my husband for support. I don't see my psychologist until Tuesday so I have to manage until then.