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Originally Posted by Innerzone
Right handed. (Left brained, right handed.)
Something that may be of interest and/or related to topic(?)...I can write in both cursive and printing backwards. Upside down too, but (easily) only in printing. I also write in code at same rate as straight up writing. It comes quite easily. The thing that strikes me -- especially in the reverse and upside downs that there's a letting go in thinking. Just do. Left, right, upside down, the directions things go in, whatever. I attribute it to lateral thinking, which has significant correlation with BP.
BP II, GAD/OCD (GAD for sure, I'm not sure if it was changed or added to the other) and (inattentive) ADHD.
BP was "standard" onset (clearly, anyway) at 20. Severity pretty high for BP II, having some BP I features.
(Only because people tend to ask...The code is made of 2 alphabet systems, a symbol for something that "felt" too decodable, and marks with certain sounds. It all started with not wanting people to be able to read my stuff so that I might write freely. I started using it frequently with a potent but short-lived bout of paranoia. Most recent journal is exclusively written in it. Aaaand, there ya have it.)
(Sorry for blathering on. I'm having tactile hallucinations, so can't sleep, and trying to keep mind off it. Not working terribly well, but at least enough to not be totally flipping out. Going to try more meds...)
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Just from reading your post, I would have it changed to BP-I (if it is all the same to you and of course only if your psychiatrist agrees). Especially because of the hallucinations and ADHD inattentive (the latter being very much like, and can have been misdiagnosed as such at an early age, SZ/BP prodromes. Also your mood dysregulation may be (I don't know, mind: please tell me!) more continuously erratic due to generalised anxiety (which personally, taking the place of a clinician for the moment, I would not never separately diagnose) and OCD issues.
Did you receive your ADHD-i diagnosis before or after your BP diagnosis? Do you only experience tactile hallucinations when depressed or (hypo)manic? Do your tactile hallucinations feed into, or maybe cause or have started, your OCD? If so in answering the last question, I would try a different approach for that, in addition to "normal" psychotherapy for OCD, only if needed after the tactile hallucinations have been taken care of (you might then not experience residual OCD problems). Did you have OCD problems early on (in your childhood or early adolescence)? Might these have been caused by tactile hallucinations (it's possible for hallucinations to only be recognised at a later age)? Did you have clear lateral thinking in your childhood as well (again, maybe misdiagnosed as ADHD-i), which might in some way resemble (formal) thought disorders? To help distinguish between the two: did your surroundings, outside stimulation, cause mainly your problems or internal thought processes?
About one third of people with BP (could be a bit less: I forgot the exact figures) are diagnosed with ADHD. I think most, but arguably not all, are misdiagnosed, having experienced, and do still experience more severely, SZ/BP prodromes.