Hi Anglo

I'm sorry I don't really have any advice do give you, but I thought you might want to know that you're not the only one feeling that way. I'm sorry if this is not helping, but I've been seeing my therapist for two years and a half now, and I still feel incredibly anxious the day of my appointment, sometimes it even starts the day before, I can't eat, I can't focus, the only thing I think about is my session. I thought it would pass with time, but it didn't. I still can't really make eye contact either. But my dissociation is not as bad as it used to be, at least most of the time. For more than a year I dissociated almost at every session, my T used to tell me he felt like I was not really there. I'm only telling you this so that you can know it gets better even if it takes a very long time. I guess it's part of the process. You need to use this anxiety, understand where it comes from. Like for me, I'd say it's because of the things that bother me and that I try to block instead of sharing them with my T. Once you understand that, you talk more freely and things get better.