Hello. So I saw the CYW for the last time until a year from now. Which sucks, but I feel better I did say goodbye. But she said that the school would have never dealt with people with mental illness one on one with her, but she pushed for it and after a year or so of her trying, they let her. But since she's leaving, the replacement person may ruin this part because its a "not official" role. Like, if the person doesn't care, the person I normally would see may have to redo what she fought for years ago. And it sucks. They find it more important to deal with LDs, ADHD, ODD, or things disrupting classes or people with bad grades than people who have severe anxiety or depression. The school only cares about academics. Which I guess comes in mind the question if the school should help this behaviour or not. School is suppose to be a place to learn, but what if MI impairs learning? What if someone can't get resources to help them outside of school? Maybe my opinion is bias, but I found it helpful to see someone one on one for half an hour a week. I felt less anxious and depressed, which would lead to better schooling. In Ontario, we have different school regions. So in my region, we do have social workers. Just two though for all the people in my region, which my region has more than 100 000 people in it. Not everyone needs it, but I can only see her every other week or once every three weeks. And you technically can't see a social worker at school for more than 6 times. I'm technically not suppose to see the social worker at my school anymore, but she knows that I'm at a pretty rough part so she's made an exception. But why can't they have a social worker per one to two school instead of like 50-100 schools? Mental illness isn't going to go away after 6 sessions. The point of it is so you can have strategies to get through school. They care if you do drugs or cyberbully outside of school, but why not mental illness? No offence, but many older teachers don't accept mental illness because it was a taboo thing back then. I'm not saying every older teacher is like that, but more than younger teachers. It's the stigma. Gah. And there are more than just me who have this issue. Anyone who has a MI has this issue too. Some people are worse than others on how they can handle school. Truth for me, if I didn't care about my marks as much, I would never go to school and sleep in. And I like seeing staff at the school who are nice about it.

Anyways, CYWs are sent to classrooms first, doing duties other people who aren't trained as a CYW can do (like scribing; anyone can scribe), and just watching a room with test students for crying out loud. They aren't using what they fully can. If there were, I'm sure the goal the school wants will be fulfilled better than before. Apparently the whole goal is for the school to help the students, but I don't feel helped if I'm pushed to the back. How is that helping? It's not. Apparently they are modifying something, not sure what though, the CYW didn't give me much details, but I'm hoping it's better than this.

Social anxiety disorder, GAD, OCD, and panic attacks

Lexapro, 10 mg