I kind of get this. I certainly still get very very for days before each session, and Im so anxious my legs and hands are shaking as I walk in to the session. I've been seeing him 20 months, and if anything its getting worse. I can't say Im confident and happy with him though. Part of me definitely is, but Im also absolutely fuming at him, sceptical, and just straight out non trusting. There are very few sessions I can remember- just bits and pieces of conversation. Right now I just want to quit altogether, so I definitely don't have any advice Im afraid.