This is related to ED so trigger warning:

I've a history of anorexia and I've lost a lot of weight again. It is like I can't see it but the scale shows, people tell me, my clothes are sliding off of me. Of course, there's the bipolar 1 and my anxiety disorders. I have also have had some extreme diarrhea (like thirty times a day) and have gone through numerous tests. I'm on meds for it but the problems are back full force. In addition, I have a cold.

So, I'm feeling like crap and I'm a little concerned. I am not IP - material but have no appetite and could easily slip back into anorexia. I just feel like my body is breaking down. I've been sipping Gatorade and eating is near impossible. I'm taking all my meds plus two gummy bear vitamins daily.

I'm scared. Today my tongue is coated yellow. It was like that a few weeks ago.

I'll be alright. I have so many health problems including chronic pain. But I am scared because I have no appetite and I feel like my body may be shutting down ... maybe that is too dramatic but let's say I feel like I got hit by a truck and I'm spaced out.

The Eating Disrders forum is too triggering for me. I hope you don't mind me posting this here. I think I need a nudge and tips to keep me out of the hospital due to my malnourished state. Baby steps. Any ideas? Thoughts? Can anyone relate?

Thanks for listening.