Hi! You are so not alone on this. I feel very much the same. I find I have a such a hard time wrapping my head around the whole concept of therapy. And like one of the other posts ... When I do have a session I am lucky to remember even half of it. I am hoping that in the coming weeks ... As I try and be more open with my therapist that maybe it will get better.
Who knew one person could take your mind ... Spin it around a few times and then make it swirl!!! That's what it feels like for me. I think you are in the right track with pushing yourself with small steps ... I am going to try to do the same. ((Hugs)).