Hi Altered Moment,

I'm really sorry for your loss, my condolences
Please allow it to give you some peace that you were there for/with him when it really mattered, because you were, but absolutely allow yourself to grieve.
It's a natural process, and although I know it will be far from easy , not doing so can sometimes be even harder.
And if you need more support..........well we can be here for you in that

Alison