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sometimes self disclosures feel like i'm giving him my heart to hold in his hands.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> YES! is that ever the truth!

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and all the while he is sitting there kind of pleading with me 'trust me. trust me. take a risk. its okay. you can trust me.'

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> yep, that too. Mine casually said, "some people have thought of me like a father figure, I would be OK with that if you also wanted to think that way"..... to which I stared blankly off toward the corner that I so often "visually" escaped to.

Well, one can be pushed but yes, one must be ready or it might do more harm than good... at least, that's been my experience.

I do so very much hope, that you will find a means to which you are able to communicate more openly from your deepest parts of your inner being, with your T.-- be it email, phone or even f-t-f. yes, it is very hard for some of us to "get stuff out".
thanks for replying back... means a lot to me.

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I think you did pretty well. Quite pretty well.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> I really appreciate that. I often have so much that I want to convey that it doesn't end up being understood the way I meant it, as I accidentally leave parts out, or veer off on a tangent that only seems to make sense to me. ..... oops! a bit off topic .... please-- carry on......