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Originally Posted by unaluna
Artie - back when relationships were still an option for me (not sure when that ship sailed) i called it buying into another persons lifeview and or their version of crazy. Now after all of ts unconditional positive regard - idk. How do you keep the negative from eventually outweighing the positive?
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I don't really know. I guess that is the question of the day! She also asked me if I did leave him, would I want to be with another man? or with a woman? I didn't even have to think about it, immediately answered honestly "I would want to be be alone". And for long enough to figure out exactly what I do want. And I said that's what I can't tell my h - I can't tell him that I think about wanting to be alone, because I don't want to hurt him, because I feel so responsible for him, meh.
(I think that when I fell and hit my head awhile back, it knocked something into place because I have been talking to t more unabashedly than ever since then. I mean I've always been open and honest with her, but it's insanely easy lately!!)