Hi Crazy Hitch,

"Just hurting so much today ....."
I understand completely, and I so wish I could take that pain away
But I know as well there must have been so much of an emotional investment you've made in the relationship that it's going to hurt regardless, so there isn't a lot I, or anyone else, can say that is going to be a lot of help right now.........it does take time and support
But that's also a positive...........time can help, this might hurt so much right now.......but in time.........and gradually (there may be up's, there may be down's but.......) it is going to get better
And while you've invested so much into someone who's behaved that way.........ultimately he hasn't been worth it...........what you have got is absolutely priceless and something you have got..........your kids

Now whatever he does is going to be pretty meaningless compared to the relationship you are going to have with them
And you can eventually (when you're ready/if you want to!!) be open to a relationship with someone who truly deserves to be with you, who will treat you as you deserve to be treated. It might seem unthinkable right now.........but down the line there will be that opportunity.
And in a way, I'm glad that you've found out what he's deep down like right now, at least now you may have a better future.
But today........I know it's hurting and there's not much I can say..........so..........sending you big hugs: and letting you know that you're cared about
One day at a time...........

Alison