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Originally Posted by ManOfConstantSorrow
I don't understand your question; punishing my entitlement - perhaps you can explain.
It seems to me that as an adult you make your own way. Your mother makes hers. It is certainly not the case that a dutiful adult offspring allows a parent to run their life, still less doing everything she says.
As for respect and sense of duty - it is perhaps sad that your mother has not elicited these feelings from you but no doubt there are good reasons.
It seems to me that you have yet to fully grasp the fact that you are independent and make your own choices. You are young and you have your life ahead of you.
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In guess...I feel like what I've done, the way I became independent, was all an act of entitlement. Rather than graduating college and getting a job, or getting a job as a teen (my usual excuse is I wasn't allowed - actually true. My parents didn't believe teens should work while in school, and I repeatedly failed to get a summer job), I ripped off my mother for two years then ran away to steal from the government. Something I pray I won't have to do much longer. Like I got my independence, but in the most despicable way possible. How could I erase all this?
But it seems like any mention of "low-income" reminds me of all of this, and fills me with shame and frustration at this situation I'm stuck in. Even my mom talks about "nothings like [me] who don't want to work". I do want to work, I'd love to be self-sufficient. And I'm terrified it will never happen. But how entitled was it of me to do all this, to take and take to compensate for my failures?