I agree that going back where you came from is not a great idea. That wasn't really working for you in the past.

For the next three months, I think you ought to stay right where you are. This guy is providing you with some refuge and it sounds like it's helping you.

You can't turn your feelings off . . . and he can't turn his on. So be respectful of the distance he is maintaining from you, and don't pressure him for more closeness. Just absorb the warmth of his friendship for now. Work your program, stay clean and sober, and stop thinking longterm. Just continue being helpful around the house and be a good guest. Do that for a few months, then re-evaluate the whole situation. Sometimes, we just have to grope our way from day to day, not knowing where it's ultimately taking us. It's okay to do that. Not knowing the future won't kill you. Let go of wanting to know. Just concentrate on your sobriety.

This guy is providing some friendship. Appreciate that. If you decide you have to have more, you're going to end up out of there. Then you'll gravitate toward a guy who will be sexual with you . . . . and, most likely, also abusive. It will not be a change for the better.

You are not ready to be in an intimate relationship right now. This guy you're staying with is actually being the best kind of a friend that you need right now. He cares more than you realize, but he is wisely backing off to give you room to clean up your act.

I was going to suggest AA, but, as you may already now, that comes with its own dangers. You'ld probably be preyed upon by the unscrupulous types that wander in there. Get more time sober first.