Stop calling yourself "co-dependent." You will gain nothing by throwing around that kind of jargon. leave diagnosing to doctors. Don't try to diagnose yourself.

I totally understand that you feel an emotional need to keep this man in your life, and that that is making it seem impossible for you to either leave or throw him out. Don't try to analyze why you have that need by coming up with concepts like co-dependence and emotional addiction. Doing that is neither helping you understand, nor fix your situation. Leave pop psychology to people who make money writing clever books about it.

Your situation is not at all unusual. Women living in homes where they are abused usually find it hard to leave. Statistics say that a woman in your situation is likely to make 8 unsuccessful attempts to leave before succeeding, if she ever manages to succeed. So stop thinking that your situation is more hopeless than that of every other woman. Lots of women who felt every bit as stuck as you feel have, in some cases, managed to change their lives. Right now that seems overwhelmingly difficult to you.

Here is a link you might want to look at: The National Domestic Violence Hotline | 24/7 Confidential Support

You can also call 911 and ask them for a phone number. They will most likely be glad you called for a referral. People at agencies that help women in domestic violence situations will not pressure you to leave your house. They will give you an option, and you don't have to take it. Specifically, ask about support groups and try to go to one.

Some police departments have officers specially trained in domestic violence. Call the police and ask if you can meet with an officer like that to talk about your situation.

I am not telling you to leave right now. I am advising you to start talking to people who know more about this than you do. That can get the wheels turning in your head, so that you can begin to see it may not all be as hopeless as you now believe.