I have always done construction work because of anxiety issues. Now at 40 ive killed my back. I have 7 ruptured disc in lower back 3 in mid back and 3 in my neck. Ive been addicted to pain killers so all i can take for pain is steriod shots,ibuprofen,tylonol. Im on suboxone because of my addiction for almost 2 years now. I constantly hurt some flareups are extreme pain and i do have to get demerol shots for them. Most days is just a steady adull heavy aching pain always there. No relief. This is causing my depresion to slowly kill me worse as am ageing.I have no qaulity of life. I know there is people in worse shape then me but it still dont seem fair to have to hurt when theres meds to help ease the pain and help me to do more things for myself and others. Ita awful feeling. If it gets much worse i dont know were to turn. Depresion meds make me feel worse my body dont except them well. It would help if i could get rid of my pain tremendously but i cant. Well anyway just putting that out there. I feel like i just need to share my feelings with someone who wont tell me all the things I want to hear. Thankjs for reading !