I understand how you feel man. Especially with the crying. As a man I honestly feel like there is no good reason for a man to cry. It is a sign of weakness & men are always supposed to be strong. I hate not being able to control my emotions. I have now gotten to the point when I'm alone & I want to cry and just let it out I can't. When I am at work or other public places it takes everything I have not to cry. I absolutely hate this feeling.