Still struggling over this latest love disappointment. I know a lot of you have told me to move on and get to know somebody my own age but it's just a struggle to get this stuff out of my head. I told you I was retired and I really don't need these negative thoughts churning - I think I'm still in love and damn I don't want to be. I've tried to keep busy and that helps but the obsessiveness is going to kill me. I know I shouldn't have got myself into this mess but it's too late and I'm kinda paralyzed. Hell she's 37 years younger than me and I can't shake her. Also, I keep playing that tape of her with her new man - it's very abusive. Everytime I think I'm pulling out of it a bit I start doing that circular thinking again and bam I'm back to square one - I don't know if I can take it! I need a friend I can talk to about this which I don't really have. I tried to talk to my neighbor but we're not that close. Wow my head is not in a good place. Thanks.