I'm so sorry, but I have been away from this forum for months. I just tend to left thing go when I (feel I don't need them)

Well, today after nearly 4 months I had another panic attack. I think it was because yesterday my mom told me she felt a lot of sadness this last two days and it triggered in me the desire and impotence of "How can I make her stop suffering?" reaction. Yes, I know it's a dependent relationship and I'm a psychologist, but it's like my self control goes haywire when my mom is included.

It had been... a little difficult. I feel more in control yet at the same time I feel weak and tired and a little lost. Nothing extreme, mind you, but it came as a very rude shock and while I know how to deal with it, I feel afraid of it.

I keep going.