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Originally Posted by sinking
My life is dominated by fear (and buried anger) and i've just realized that without them i would be nothing, so i cling onto those negative emotions to give me an identury but i could do otherwise, i'm just too scared that under all this pain and fear and anger there would be nothing left. That i am nothing. Theres nothing in me except pain, fear, anger, sadness, hurt.
Anyone like me?
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Dear god, yes. I've been ruminating about it all morning - it's a victim mentality. Without it is just a void. To never feel sadness, self-hate, anger, envy, or any of that ever again, while it would be a sign of maturity, would be so empty it's unfathomable. Like, what would I even think about if not how worthless I am, how hopeless life is, and how bad I need a magic fix? What else is there - it's like that, right?
And like rcat was saying, you/we have no right to feel pain, not when so many people have it worse. So now those feelings HAVE to go...but can they?