Well I've been trying to do some artwork and post it online. I've been getting some feedback on the artwork and it is generally good. Also I've been going for long walks and stopping at a coffee shop trying to interact with people - this has mixed results. Yes my obsession is scary, I think because of the years alone I spent that there is a ton of pent up frustration. And yes I have thought about seeing a counsellor (a have a doctor who prescribes my drugs and does talk therapy but I haven't called her yet). Psyche-wise I don't think I'm healthy - I get paralyzed mentally so easily. I just feel so different from other people in a not so good way. I was doing okay until last night and for some reason thoughts of her hit me hard again. I feel so helpless. Thanks