I am not sure that you are being entirely reasonable here.

Pretty few people are totally free of being dependant at some time even in their adult lives, everyone likes some attention, many have difficulty in dealing with other people, we are all susceptible to powerlessness, negativity and lack of hope. It is called being human.

I don't think it unreasonable to give yourself a break. You may not be perfect, but so what, you do the best you can like the rest of us. It usually comes right in the end.