Well in therapy today we talked about...or I did about not being able to open up fully and regreting things I didn't talk about. Then when I e-mail her the past 2 tiimes she didnt reply but said in session (a few days later) that she felt it best to wait for therapy...but what I haven't told her is I feel she doesn't care if she hasn't replied...a million things go in my head if she doesnt reply soon..then I cry...and..I cry..I pretend thoughts in my head of her saying "he's a good person for e-mailing"...or "I better reply he's my friend".......DAMN IT!!! Why do I do this....I need my T...I need a friend.............I have so many..........but why don't I feel a relief............................why...........................whats my purpose...whats my role