It's better to tell T. I've been dealing with this for about a year. I keep postponing telling her about this. And after this month I can't talk to her about this for at least 5 months. This whole year I could just say to myself ''I can wait to next week or longer. It isn't necessary to tell her now. It can wait.'' And I could email her any time I wanted, she only aswers email during workhours.
5 months without any contact from her

I'll try to write everything in a letter. With very difficult stuff I can express myself better on paper than with talking. And then I'll give it at our session this Friday. I've also two other things we need to talk about. Ugh. Al this stuff about T's (my T, replacement T and Pdoc) comes on top of the things I went in therapy for. I think/worry about it so much.