i dont feel obligated to tell you that i care about you - not one bit...

im talking to you because i know how you feel... i know how it feels to think no one cares... i know how it feels not to have anyone to pick you up and help you walk just a few steps...
i know you know... im not here because i feel its an obligation to try to stop people from doing something bad... im here because im trying to stop myself from doing the same thing you are talking about... and hoping that i can help others that feel like me to stop too...

i dont talk to anyone in real life about these things because of the things you said - most people dont care and they will just ask you how you are doing out of some type of habit like its just a greeting... they dont really care how you are doing...

but i care how YOU are doing... i really want you to feel better too...
i really wish i could do more, i wish i could take it away from everyone that suffers with these things... but the most i can do is try to keep myself alive and try to be as compassionate and helpful to others in similar situations as mine as i can...

its not because i feel obligated to help a stranger really... i just want to give you a little slither of hope... that maybe someone in the world really does care...

if there is absolutely anything that i can do within reason just tell me