Hi Biiv,

Welcome home.....you know I have to say, for me, if I was eating all that combination of foods you are talking about & drowning it with 1 1/2 bottles of wine, I would be puking my head off without ever having to make myself do it. The worst part of throwing up for me is that it breaks all the blood vessels in the whites of my eyes & then all over my face.....can you picture a person with completely blood red whites of their eyes & little red pin marks all over their face......that's me!!!!!

You are wondering about what to talk about with your T tomorrow....how about talking about what is causing your depression to be getting worse? Maybe that is actually too far along the road......I know for me, sometimes I can't even identify that & need help at the very basic point...it's not always easy to identify from within....& it helps to have someone assist with the very basics? Helping you to identify the causes of the problems.....because sometimes without finding the causes, we canot stop the actions....no matter how destructive they are.

The one thing to remember however is that alcohol is a depressant, so if you are drinking more, you will be feeling more depressed...just a fact of life. But there is something making you feel like you have to drink.....that is where a therapist could help you identify that?

Just some suggestions for your appointment tomorrow. I hope you will be feeling better soon. It is sad when we get to the point where we feel that we have to hurt ourselves to feel better.

Take care of yourself....I care,
Debbie (your 2nd mother?)