I think it is so hard to walk in the good that I can easily lose the things that are alright. There are always things that are alright. My house is good. The neighborhood I live in is good. I am blessed with good food. My troubles are all relationship based but mainly in my family. There are friends that I have that in forty five years we have never had a problem. Our family has such a history of trouble,divorce, unfaithful fathers generation after generation, angry upset hurt mothers and these things are hard to overcome. I try to be good and do right but every hurt , every attack against me just goes inward and adds to the pain. It is hard to love and hurt at the same time.