im sorry you are having such a hard time...
i know thats what everyone says and its cliche... and it doesnt help much... but i truly know how it feels to be at the end of the rope...
but i know how hard it is to want to release some of that pain... self harm seems to help momentarily but i know its not a solution... its not something that is going to make me feel better - it actually makes me feel worse about myself because the scars are reminders... having to cover up ...

i know you just want to feel a little better - release some of the hurt.. but its not a good thing to do... you are in the hospital to try to improve your situation... is there someone there you can talk to about it? can you try learning new way to release the pain without self harm...? i tried the rubber band thing for a while - it help a little but it just kind of seems like another way to inflict pain ... but atleast it not as dangerous as cutting right..?
please try not to do it... like pfrog says maybe you can give up the tool you found... please try to protect yourself... they want to protect you too ...
i hope someone there can try to help you learn new coping mechanism that can work for you and help you stop... i know how hard it is to stop though please be safe...

i have only been inpatient one time so im not completely familier with how it works but the place i went to they had 8 group meetings a day... i didnt want to do them of course but i made myself do it so they would let me out earlier... i was there for 8 days i think...
but talking about the problems does help... its been 2days since i have sh i think... please dont do it

we have to learn better ways...

i read somewhere that some people were taking a red magic marker and drawing lines instead of cutting and they said it helped a little but i never tried it...

you in my thoughts...