Hmmm. I think you're right. I'm not independent anymore, and trying to be nice to everyone at the cost of my own emotions. I think i got lost somehow. I didn't know about co-dependence. Thank you for helping me identify my problem! Thank you so much!
1. I tend to lose control esp when people are rude to me. When people are rude to me, i immediately think it's my fault. Hence i get upset at myself which is reflected and i get upset at that person. I think .. that's the process.

2. I am pretzel. Yes.

3. Zack - I don't want him to have a reason to be sad. I'm apparently one of the people he's okay with having around (wow the more i reply the more i identify with co-dependence)

4. I will try snooping around. However, i wish to try my best and help myself first before asking for help. Hence PC I've never been to a therapist yet.

Thank you, Bill3. Your response has been immensely helpful.

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