I have/had severe depression. From the end of 2013 until October 2015 it was really really bad. I didn't went back in therapy until the start of 2015.
Before that I've also had periods of depression, but not as bad as it is now.
What helped me was medication. It took about 10-12 months to find the right med combination. It made me feel a little less low. SI thoughts became much less. This helped me to focuss more on my therapy. I was convinced it was all hopeless and useless. But because I didn't feel so low anymore, I started to think that maybe things could be better and I could be helped.
In my therapy I've done some EMDR sessions. We talk, we do CBT, I have a workbook to help me improve my self-esteem.
I'm still not happy. I wonder if I'll ever be happy. Or just glad to be on this world.
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