CycloMary- I just want to thank you for having the balls to speak about this.

I've wanted to post something exactly like this for so long. But I was afraid at the backlash. So here goes my story...

My bf and I have been together for two years. For about the first year he was going through his divorce so we thought it best not to bring his kids around until it all settled and custody of the two boys were figured out. One son lived with his ex wife and another lived with my bf's mom. Well last summer when the dust settled, I was able to meet the children. I was nervous as hell because I know kids have no filter and if they didn't like me, I would be told so. But thankfully the relationship turned to hugs and kisses and more play dates!

As of now, the mother has full custody of the 6 year old and the 9 year old lives with my bf and I in my home. We switch weekends and every other Wednesday and the boys are together these days. Don't get me wrong, they're great kids and there's many hugs and kisses and "I love you's" going around. But deep within I don't feel the motherly vibe. I do care about them and love them and we do a lot together but it's just not there. Am I a bad person because of this? At least I don't neglect them or act like the evil step mom! They know I love them. They're told often. And no I don't have kids of my own so I really don't know what that motherly vibe even feels like.

This makes me feel guilty. Like I'm not putting 100% but believe me, I am putting in all that I can. I'm trying hard here! Will I EVER feel like their mother? Or is that a line step moms never cross?

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